And When Will I Ever Learn?

I chose to choose you over other people. I chose to work things out with you because I wanted you in my life. I chose to know you each day for me to be able to understand your personality. I chose to love you because my heart said so.

My mind tells me to put myself first because this is another path to the unknown. My mind tells me to choose wisely because I can make mistakes and hurt myself if I allow my heart to decide. My mind tells me it’s better to be safe than go back to the slump where I was before. My mind tells me to find a reason to leave because you might not be the right person for me.

But my heart tells me otherwise. My heart tells me things will work out if I want them to. My heart tells me I made the right choice by choosing him over everyone else. My heart tells me it’s okay to bear the pain because it’s part of my personal growth as an individual. My heart tells me there might be a million reasons to leave, but there is always one reason to stay, and that is “I love him.”

People might think I’m stupid. People might think I’m wasting my time. People might think there are better people around to stick with. But why does my heart tell me it’s you, Nam? Why does my heart tell me I made the right choice to fight? Why does my heart tell me things will be fine?

When will I ever learn?