Nam.

Falling in love with you was easy. Easy in a way where I don’t need to overthink about what may happen in the future. Easy in a way where I don’t need to be conscious of my feelings. Easy in a way where I can be myself and not suppress anything I wish to do or say. Is this how love is supposed to be? If it is, I wonder why I never felt so much security in the past. I wonder why I have had to experience pain and sadness in the past. I wonder why I didn’t meet you before. Is life teaching me lessons first so I can differentiate what it is like to be treated right? Is life teaching me what it is like to be appreciated, from my beauty down to my deep thoughts? Why is it so easy to love you? Why is it so easy to trust you? Without any doubt, I’m willing to work things out with you. Without a doubt, I’m willing to offer what I can do to make you happy, too. Without a doubt, I would always choose you, too.

I thought I was not ready to fall again. I thought I needed to be with myself for a long time to understand myself and the people around me. But you came, and all those thoughts vanished. Right now, I’m excited. I’m excited to spend a lot of my days with you, even if you’re far away from me. I’m excited to go to sleep every night with the thought of seeing you soon.

Soon, we’ll be together. Soon, we won’t need to be away from each other. Soon, I’ll be able to hold your hands. Soon, I’ll be able to look straight into your eyes and say, “I love you.”